Something drastically changed in my life, it all happened after the sexual rituals my babysitter would perform on me.
People in general started treating me differently, at home and at school. My parents seemed to become more distant and more abusive, it could have simply been from the added stress of my two sisters Amanda and Kimberly who had been born a few years apart. But it really wasn’t just my parents that seemed different.
Friends i had at school and even the teachers seemed to treat me differently, everyone seemed farther away than before. It could have just been some defense mechanism in me to self isolate due to the experiences i was going through and not being able to talk about it.
I couldn’t put my finger on it, was it really me? From that point on i felt completely separate from everyone else, i could not seem to find anything in common with anyone. Something seemed wrong in the world, it was like i was living in some kind of dream and everyone and everything was a figment of my imagination.
I felt like the world was a giant lie and i was the only one who could see it. Everything about the religion i was force fed to the various things i learned in school all seemed fake.
We had to move…
My Father got a job at a company in North Carolina. So we ended up packing up the whole house, said my farewells to my friends and we left of a 7 day drive to North Carolina from Washington State.
And my life suddenly went from bad to worse.